i know how you feel
i originally wanted a r32 and found a nice black one with gtr intercooler, bigger turbo, air filter, 3" piping exhaust, 17" mags with 255 tyres for 15k
and then i got rejected
yes its freakin depressing when you get all worked up
but luck changes, if you set yer heart on it, you will get it
tho i sometimes wish i got that 32
it was so ****in fast....