I see the point of spending money on car parts and oversea trips, because it pleases me and give me something to get out of the bed for.
I don't see the point in spending money on education knowing if have slightest chance of getting somewhere because I've tried in the past.
I struggle to even think about starting a business cos I've done sums and worked out the profit expectations are stupidly low after spending money on setting it up, I'd make more money stuck at my shitty job forcing food into shelves.
Also I'm not that keen on putting up with paperworks especially one from ATO, lodging tax return with them is bad enough, I'd hate to think how would I cope if I were to run a business with f**k all profit - computers would be smashed along with objects.
I don't know what the omen is if I can't even get a volunteer position, I mean, they don have to pay me anything, not a cent. Yet here I am sharing my experience with these f**kers...
I've tried searching for jobs and volunteer positions in UK couple of years ago, same story although they had 'double dip recession' just days before I'd arrived didn't help things at all.
I don't know what can I do about this and I still don't know what I want to do about this.
All I know is I'm beyond help, in the meantime I'll just show up at work forcing food into shelves and pointing people where they want to go.