If making your own beer, I recommend going to U-Brew-It, good fun going with a bunch of friends to mix and make the beer for a few hours while drinking other beer... Then you go back a few weeks later when its done and bottle it. Quality controlled and it's guaranteed to be good, less pissing around getting your home setup right and producing piss for the first 6 months/$1000 worth of attempts.
So yesterday I simply responded to her email with an sms saying "I'm not doing this over email" and she replied with "I know, its stupid and horrible but I can't speak to you about it in person. I crumble and just want to cuddle you. I'm a mess." I got home at about 7 and she wasn't there because she had to work late, got home about 30 minutes afterwards... Wasn't overly awkward, I already know she still loves her ex of 8 years (broke up almost 1 year ago, but he's always calling her about needing her help with things, he's a bit of a special case with some fairly major disorders...).
I pretty much said "Well I don't want to break up, so sort your shit out" <-- Paraphrased over 2 bottles of wine
She loves me and apparently every time I do something nice, or be an amazing boyfriend, she compares me in her head to her ex... which means she can't stop thinking about him.
I think I need to say to her "If you won't let go of him, you're going to lose me... and then you're never going to escape him and his co-dependency bullshit"
I refuse to Beta Beg... So it's either she sorts her shit out, or I'm out.