Yeah I'm worried I will, but at the same time, I've reached my strength goals and I'm happy with what I've achieved. 60kg bench was always my ultimate goal and I'm beyond that now. I've gotten to the point where I'm strong but I don't look as good as I used to in a bikini, so it's time to drop some bf and hopefully expose my muscle that I've been working on for 2 years. I also want to look better than my sister and her bff who both do bodybuilding comps, when we go to Bali for Xmas