Thanks Birds.
I definitely let outside influences into the gym, which I need to not do in future. With my life so out of my comfort zone right now, the gym is the one constant I have; something I can be in control of. When I missed the 75kg that I've gotten many times before I gave up. I even said I'm not squatting anymore. I lost all intensity, motivation and drive.
I'm lucky that my gym partner is also my emotional trigger, the one person that can get me out of my negative mindset and thoughts, and push me just enough to bring me back to where I need to be. He helped me flick the switch and turn off my negative thoughts and reminded me why I'm doing this.
I'm proud of myself for having the inner strength to turn my session around and achieve a pb of 30x50 and I'm thankful to my partner for believing in me.
Bring on 80kg squat.