Yes I know I need to sort my back out, it's just expensive. The physio helped; did dry needling and taping but it's $75 a visit.
I blanked out deadlifts as soon as I was injured, haven't done them for six months. I can do good mornings with an empty bar okay. I was doing good mornings when I was first injured at my previous gym, as they were recommended to me.
I hope I can look forward to a pain free and stronger future too. Things like putting my shoes on in the morning and getting into the car are extremely difficult and overall affects my way of life.
The reason why I haven't stopped gym is because it's one of the few things I have left. I gave up all the things I enjoyed back home, my job that I loved, and my family and friends to move to Victoria. I've also recently been through the worst experience of my life, which has led to depression amongst other things, all whilst being away from home. So yes whilst I'm in a lot of pain, going to the gym is one of the only things at the moment that makes me feel less shit about myself and my life right now.