Whoretown WA

[Nizmo]

the lesbos were getting it on - on set - oh and ken - no i didnt tape it for u hahaha

[Nizmo]

hey bam welcome back

[G0DF4Th3R]

someone PM me later about tonite

[docile]

Yeh i've been in a pretty similiar circumstance. You leave, you see them 12mnths down the track and you see the've changed (for the worse). It tore me up inside (because although it ended, i never stopped loving her or caring for her) and it screwed me around for ages. couldnt sleep properly, everything turned to shit etc.

She still cared (as he probably does) and i just confronted her. At first she resented me and really disliked me, but eventually we sat down and sorted it all out. a few weeks down the track she came good. It hurt me (and her) alot but now where good mates (which ididnt think would be possible) and i have a great GF! It all works out though!

haha i get to watch jerry everyday!

[Nizmo]

Haha sounds like we were in a similar circumstances Mat its good u now have a great girlfriend - i just seem to end up getting used sooo hoping one day theres some light at the end of the tunnel

[Nizmo]

it was like i was lookign at completely a different person in andrews body yesterday and yeah its torn me up bad - he always said his world would come to an end if i left him - i always thought he was exaggerating *shrugs*

[docile]

haha yeh sounds pretty similiar!!

I used to think that as well. i was single for ages, met a few girls, i liked but there was nothing really there etc. Started lacking confidence, self esteem etc. used to think i would die alone etc (hey, when you starting getting depressed, everything turns bad!). If i can find someone, im sure you will too!

There will be a light at the end of the tunnel. Its just that you have to pass a few dark spots and bends to see it!

[Nizmo]

yeah i know - i was really depressed up to about 3 months after andy and i broke up - so bad my mum was going to take me to doctor and get them to put me on anti depressants like they did her but i came good eventually and didnt need them and went back to my happy bubbly self living in this world that Andy got his life on track and someone else had suceeded where i failed ..... yesterday it just dragged everything back up and ive fallen into that dark place again. so gotta drag myself out again.

[Nizmo]

how crap is daytime TV?!!!

[R31 Chick]

Really crap! Watch Passions at 3.00. Thanks, I will change that, not been in the business for long.

[docile]

sounds really similiar......

Its not your fault that hes the way he is. He was obvisouly onto a good thing (u!!) and he stuffed it up and is making things worse now. EVERYONE has complete control of their actions. if i was you i would speak to him (the hardest part)....... and i dont mean just a general chat. Show him you care (but make sure he doesnt think, "ohh she wants back in").

You obviosuly still care (or you wouldnt be so cut up), so just sit him down and talk to him. have a big D+M with him. At first he WONT listen and he wont be 2 happy. but when you leave (upset too, mite i add) he will sit down and think. a week later he'll get in contact and take it from there.

thats wot happened in my circumstance, and although very bad at times, it worked out

[Nizmo]

Docile i tried the D +M he contacted me and said he needed help but he wouldnt acknowledge the problem ..... so what was i to do. Then the next time we got together he was telling me what a phucking legend he was and how he was playing all these mind games with people sooo i thought what an arsehole im not even going to try and help that!! He had this girl with him on Sunday ..... now with me where ever we were he couldnt keep his hands off me sometimes quite embarrassing - but with this chick he wouldnt even acknowledge she was there - at one point she had to grab his hand - and this was before he spied me - she looked like a real hard bitch that would be making things worse not better. So i cant have a D+M with someone with some chick that looks as if she would punch my face in if i even looked sideways at her hanging around! As for contacting him i think he showed me on Sunday that he has no time for me and i think i would only be makin things worse not better being in his life but not IN his life if u know what i mean. Our breakup was really painful for him - he had his life with me all mapped out.

Passions - geez i can watch an episode of that not watch it for 6 months and they are still on the same plot haha

[R31 Chick]

Yeah I know!

All changed! Now Madam Bayley!

[R31 Chick]

Our breakup was really painful for him - he had his life with me all mapped out.

That is the worst. Especially when they are talking about there plans and ya know you want to leave. I am not talking about Jeff here, I am talking about an ex just to clarify things.

[G0DF4Th3R]

hey Niz me feel for ya

[Nizmo]

haha yeah Bayley - whats even scarier is when they have the name of your kids already picked out - geez i thougt it was girls that was suppose to do scary stuff like that.

haha yeah madams better - sorry people picked on me for spelling airborne wrong in my sig.

[SHUTO-BOY]

sorry to hear niz,

hey everybody!

[Nizmo]

Thanks Docile - im glad someone went thru the same thing - i was geting the feeling people were "for god sakes woman get over it" but sometimes theres a long story behind it and its just a bit more complicated than ur average breakup. So its nice that someone else went thru the same thing and felt the same way

[Nizmo]

hey aidwin been wondering where u been

thanks bam

[G0DF4Th3R]

hey there aidwin,

where have u been?